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How I didn’t find Love but Expected it
My true love story
How did I find love?
I didn’t!
I haven’t lost it so how can I find it?
I married the man of my dreams not because I found love, not because it was unexpected but because I was ready to love and receive love. I didn’t have an expectation of him. I didn’t want him to be something I had imagined. I didn’t want him to “fit in” to my imaginary something.
Love is about being open to new things with another person.
That doesn’t mean I’ve got to change but I’ve got to allow myself to be free of any expectations, what I wanted, how I wanted it and etc. Only an open heart can love openly. If I followed all the rules and the ways to behave, and pretend something I am not, I would have never married the man of my dreams. If I had allowed my weird unrealistic expectations to guide me I would be alone today.
I met my husband in the most ordinary way which lead to the most extraordinary life that we both have. I needed to rent a place to live. A guy met me at Gloucester Road tube station. We walked to the flat he was renting. Offered me tea. We chatted about a book he had just received “Three Cups of Tea”. He showed me the flat. It looked nice.
