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A Rational Mind will get you so far but a Belief…
You’ve got to be able to roll the dice and trust it will all work out.
I love control.
It’s hard for me to let go and trust it… After all, trust what, who, how, can I touch it, see it…? No…! I don’t like the unknown. I don’t like to get drunk because I don’t like losing control. I don’t drink. I am not a control freak although all control freaks would say they are not; really I am not, I insist.
When people tell me just relax, let go, it will all be ok…I absolutely hate it. How do you know it will work out? How do you know relaxing helps? How can I relax when my future life depends on the next move…? You see what I mean? Am I the only one struggling to “drift”, let go…?
I love knowing if I exercise three times a week I will lose some weight. I can do something. I have control over my body. If I write every day my book will get written. I have control. Does that make me crazy?!! I’d like to think not. However, when I want something out of my control it’s a problem. It freezes me. I get anxious and I worry. My head spins with all sort of worry.
I love knowing what I will get on my plate when I order my food. I know what I like when it comes to food. I would never say something to a waiter “what do you recommend” and order that. I’d always worry what if I don’t…
